Covid

Memories are not a "normal" we can return to

Until you can recognize that craving "normal" makes you susceptible to fascism and sacrificing others, your resistance will be empty.

Connection Featured

Contextual Mismatch

Contextual mismatch simultaneously pushes us away from others and pulls us out of our bodies, disconnection and disembodiment. Contextual mismatch is manufactured against all of us, so that capitalism can fill in the gaps around us with comfort, convenience, conditioning, and cruelty.

Disability

The Difference in Charge

My problems are only our problems when the solution is to disappear us.

Tech

I realize how insignificant I am

I dream about a world where tech never existed. I consciously feel like there's no way I would want that. But I am craving something that is different than here and I don't know how it would feel.

Future

Dangling By A Silver Thread

How do you bottle up the tangibility of your life and force another to drink it? If you were intimate with my suffering, if I could carry part of yours, what changes would that bring?

Isolation

Alone Watching Atrocities

Put your own oxygen mask on first, they say. Before you help someone else. They never tell you what to do if some people don't have oxygen masks and others do but won't wear them.

Grant

Tech Fellowship Personal Statement

Yet I practice for me as I practice for you, no matter what you believe, think, or do. Where the world abandons, I welcome.

Poem

Wayside

The places and people I used to belong to. Haunts that now haunt me.

Entrepreneur

Miraculously Mediocre

I am so afraid to sell others because I use all of my energy to sell myself. I'm an entrepreneur who only sells myself on making it through the next day.

Connection

In defense of boycott fatigue

These conditioned parts and roles that we often fall into with each other also exist inside of us. The parts of us that are weak and the parts of us that shame our own weakness. The gap between who we are and who we want to be.

Hierarchy

I Need to Do It for My Mental Health

Are you going for self protection or projection?

Random

Looking and Finding

It's not enough. Consumption is not enough to fill this void. It is not enough to bury the cognitive dissonance and trauma of what happened.

Connection

Pandemic Isolation and Solitary Confinement

Can we find connection without comparison?

Covid

Longing and Dreading

There is nowhere to go and nothing to do but survive. You dread the dreading and long for longing.

Connection

Did You Make the Right Choices or Were You Chosen?

Here is a bewildering place to be.

Founder

Tech Hatred

Tech hatred serves as a warning: why add "founder" to your list of hated identities? That warning chases away the founders and products we need most.

Connection

Open Threads

The odd, the lovely, the perplexing of this moment.

Grant Featured

The Homeostasis of Humanity

Our ideas and networks are evolving, not our bodies. We adapt environments to us, yet we still create and uphold conditioned limitations. I am indefinitely excluded and isolated, yet my art can safely exist in spaces where I cannot.

Connection

On Being Impressed

Every time you make a change, you bring everyone with you. Not just the people you know, but people you've never even met. Healing is a collective effort with collective results.

Entrepreneur

A Temporary Narrative

Despite being close to vaccination, I've had a backward slide to overwhelm town. Am I doing enough? Am I changing too fast? I am always practicing and iterating, just to keep the slippery reassurance of purpose around. While being stuck or stalled gives me that familiar comfort of guilt and shame.

Life Update

Dear 2019 Me: Who Were You?

A glance at the past becomes a pseudo year-in-review. Some things change and some are possibly eternal.. for this human lifespan. I'm rumination royalty now.

Connection

The Grace to Give Space

A memory of an ex reminded me it's okay to pull from the past to stabilize and comfort yourself.

Pets

I Regret Adopting My Puppy

As my service dog puppy Pepper Ann nears a year old, do I continue to hope things improve during this pandemic or rehome her?

Trauma

It's Time

I got stalked in graduate school.

Policy Featured

It's Okay That Someone Else Got to Be Future You

Together we form an unbreakable net. I believe in a Wisconsin that can enact important human-centered policies like paid leave.